Something is Amiss

Friday, March 30, 2007

hmm.. today can say is... sucky day ba?
school was ok but then choir ... haiss...
i duno wad to do la..
ms lee didnt came for choir coz she was sick.
then we started choir quite late... then nobody listens, out of tune, nvr follow, everyone angry, door slams, fucking ups..
this few chior lessons har... ayia.. all i can say is sometimes i just hav the urge to tak my bag n just go out n nvr come back choir ever again.
i dun wan to scold ppl la.. i just dont lik to scold ...
some more i cant scold with chim chim ang moh words.. i duno how to scold lik ang moh... i must hav vulgure in my sentence if not i mumble...
i can say i suck at being a president la, coz im saying with my concience, im putting in 0% effort, all i think is, wadever la..
n it can b true, i play around during choir, i nvr look at my scores at home, i nvr practice at home, all i do is sometimes think of choir songs only, if not my choir files will nvr b touched until choir days, its the truth, i suck at president, n i appeal to my frens la, if theres anything stupid tt i did not do as a president, just tell me la... coz if not i wont do it..
n somemore becoming president was such a short notice la.. few months ago i still thought "hey joanne is gona come back so y act lik real president when im just acting president?" then how i know things will turn out this way la..
n i can say im not fully commited to the choir at all, i pon, i slack, i hate somethings abt choir la.. im lik wtf la..
so sian la.. i stayed in the choir for my kuku family, i told this to joanne b4...
n this really makes my heart break.. coz when i stay for my kuku family, it really is for them only.. n lik last year... i felt that kuku family is gone... theres no such thing as kuku family alr.. we havent been going out together for such a long time... n everyone is busy with their own stuff.. n i oso told joanne b4, to me at that point, kuku family was my only family, coz that time my parents were quarrel everytime, n i really didnt lik going home, it was lik all i hav were my brothers, i dont hav a proper family, n when even my last bunch of so called "made up family" is gone, im lik some homeless shit la..
i know ppl changes ,but y cant we all just adapt to that change n go on the way it was...?
n since kuku family is long gone, my purpose in choir is gone as well.. but just then i was asked to b a president, i thought it was just for a short while, but now wtf? if i quit wouldnt ppl say im an irresponsible "president?" lik walau i nvr "URGE" to even b the president, so y keep fucking around saying me this n tt? it may b true but hey, wont i feel insulted la? its lik fuck la u say all u want, not happy ah? tak the position la i quit. go b the president la, no nid kpkb
its lik everytime i stand infront of the choir, n they play around, fine they look happy, coz they are my frens, i alone be unhappy coz im not doing my job is ok, its better than the bunch of them being unhappy coz i scold them? rite?
hais..
im also afraid la.. i scold, but then wad if i lose control of myself? n i scold until lik theres no tomorrow?
i dunwan to b tht kind of person, who keeps scolding n put a glum face everyday, i want to b the happy sam, everyone can say, " just scold la"but hey i really dont want la..
im sure everyone in the choir wants to hav a happy time in there n not being scolded again n again n again...
n if it goes on soon ppl will use "i want to quit choir" as a method to threaten the choir, i dun wan to scream about la.. the last time i did during the sec 1 orientation, i just screamed n screamed n screamed.. n then i lost my voice... y shuld i abuse my own voice lik that la? haiss...
duno wad to do la... =/

missing;7:42 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

aaaah.... cant believ it.. i woke up at nearly 5 in the evening....
got home after playing at katong lan shop with my bros n their frens,
wahaha was fun, my fren's gf oso play, ai seh girl play dota ^^
when playing liyong sms'd me, lol i found out lik 1 hr later, hehe
thx mary ur msg so touching ^^
then played till 3+ in the morning n went to pasir ris to eat, reached home 4+ then slept at abt 5.. zzzz...
then woke up so blur... i rmb abt 9+ my 3rd bro crazy de.. keep whacking sand bag n i cannot sleep.. zzz...
then my mum called at 1 or 2, then i slept back... till abt 4 50+ then i woke up.. soooo refreshing wahahah..
but my saturday got destroyed, left urday, sat gone ^^
then played dota with my 2nd bro lolzz.. dota dota everyday alamak... lol i was shocked when he was at home la i ask him y nvr go work meh? coz he ytd say he got work oso, then he say he pon tang lol...
then play play then my big bro came home .. lol he came home n then took a bath n slept straight away.. haha.. everyone tired from ytd ^^ but we probably gona gather n play every week ^^ haha the auntie there so nice, then the uncle, the owner of the lanshop oso so frenly
wellz i missed breakfast... missed lunch... now going dinner soon.. good ah? save money
i this week probably saved abt $100+ wahahah got bak wad i spent last week.. zz
gona go buy me a new jacket le!! i wan go shopping!! anyone want come with??? ^^ sms/tag/nudge me at msn hor!
oh ya oso, this week pei yun, nicholas,jerermy,rachell all toking abt pri sch ppl, haha.. i miss siang yew broling ^^ miss lois sista ^^ miss janna peggy ^^ miss daryl altho i see him most of the time...bt nvr chat ^^, miss dennis oso nvr even see him at tmart alr.. alamak.. then ivan, abq.. ayerr... blame lois la... nvr organize bday party for 2 yrs alr.. =( n oso shi hong, ppl say she become v auntie ^^ haiss... nid to find 1 day call them up le ba :)
wellzzz.. heard rachell n guo en stead le, gratz gratz, ayia dun gossip too much le la bb bb ^^

missing;8:46 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

very long nvr blog again le, hehe later naemah say me again..
ToDaY;;
went to school ba... tried being early.. but when i reach there it was 7.15 and i walked to canteen for no reason... this morning i wanted to wake up at 5 coz i tot it was the due date for a composition typing onto a soft copy...
then i woke up at 5.. then i thought awhile... "ayia nvm la nvr do kena scolded lor..." then i went to sleep again.. hehe.. then in sch 1st lesson was phy, ms sakinah got quite upset ba.. ;/ i can sense tt she trying very hard to want us pass, outside hard n scary but inside soft n kind, alamak thts ms sakinah la.. ^^ alamak now wang li hom sing happy song on tv mak me quite happy haha.. ^^
then after phy was mt
1st we tot only the exp chinese teacher nvr come, then walau mdm noreen relieve them... then went to 4n2 class, then wahahah my teacher nvr come too i ran to the balcony benches outside 4n2 coz pradeep was there , then jerermy and zhi jie too we did eng report writing ^^
then finish then went back class, mdm noreen was in class, she kept asking us y we went into class she tot we was having mother tongue earlier..zzz
then after tt was eng, 3 lesson.. so tiring... then recess
after tt we poa left, general journal very confusing.. =/
then after tt mr teo gav us all a choco coin for reward for our test.. haha he was so so happy, then we kept saying "debit choco coin, creditor-Mr teo increase" alamak ^^ after poa i went out n saw abby, the she dragged me ..zz then we saw kaili, then liyong then serene, then we went toilet, then when i was done, zzz they still using toilet n i saw abby outside the girls toilet the teacher's table waiting, then i looked so wierd outside the girls toilet la..zzz then we saw ms sakinah coming down, then from far she said "sam must work harder okay?" then before that abby n i was joking abt a tv show, then she was imitating the person n she said "wad say tt again?" to ms sakinah.. lol i was laughing my ass off... then ms sakinah told her then she passed me the message when ms sakinah was just infront of me, then she said to herself "y am i passing her message to u when shes so near?" ayia abby.. so silly la ^^
then we waited quite long then liyong n serene came out, then abby remembered she had to go toilet..zzz by then the toilet seemed deserted alr.. bodoh... then we went to canteen, n i was telling abby on how ms sim kept doing n saying wierd things to me... o.O my hair stand everytime she does something.. creepy -.-
then half way toking, at the vending machine, we saw ms sim coming out then i was hoping tt she did not noticed me.. n i walked faster to a pillar...
then omg i didnt expect it... she called me.. n ask me whether she shuld drink milo... ALAMAK..... -___-
then i ask her "y.. u asking.. me.. -.-"
then she lik nvr hear then lik.. "no ah? i shuldnt drink milo ah? ya hor i shuldnt drink.. ok la byeee"
^_- .....
i mean.. y isnt it liyong? or serene? or abby?... zzz.. im just her math student not her form class student or anything... alamak she abit... dingdong..
then eat eat, went out buy buy.. eat eat.. then choir, i was really tired n my flu was irritating me.. n i was starting to loose abit of my voice, then i asked nabilah to que them in n i play the piano.. coz my throat was starting to hurt..
then the air con so cold.. n i was getting really tired... well.. im not gona lie... there was something else which kinda disturbed me but im not gona say :]
then ms lee say shes leaving to overseas.. aww.. then nabilah cried... i think.. did she? then lik ..awww...
then went eat n then went home.

PS: ppl dont worry im ok ^_^ even if im not, i later going play at lanshop till morning , so i'll mak myself happy again!! :) thx for caring n sry to mak u guys worry :]
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missing;8:04 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

sorry naemah la.. i really lazy to blog.. somemore my blog no pictures... handphone cannot transfer then its lik so boring la... k la k la update lor.. for u ok!!! feel proud ;P

Few crazy things..
well tok abt last week b4 holiday ba, last day of sch n there was a birthday celebration for the jan,feb and march bday babies n oso mdm noreen's they bought a rumbutan+peace cake, was quite nice.

holiday
-i rmb i went to eat Tze char with my 3rd bro, eee he cant eat much de wahahah i eat alot more than him lor...
then after tt aaah i rmb that night my bros were all waiting for the stupid Muonline 6 times xp to finish, wait until dota sick.. then we all called our frens n went to find a 24hr lanshop to play. alamak ppl give suggestion as marina south... WOODLANDS... alamak.. it was 12 midnight go woodlands... come back alr sleep duno until where le..
then we went to katong n walk around n find, my bro's fren said roxysquare.. lik thx la it was lik so closed alr.. not a single soul was there.. then we walked the whole area n my big bro n hes frens came, then we went to find, at last found 1 24hrs shop, was so crowded then we played from 12+ all the way till morning 6am, alamak they all alr tired liao, we from full house play until tt shop no ppl at all.. -.- left the 2 owners.. then 1 of them even went to get a fake mc not to go work XD bad bad papa adrian ^^..then my 2nd bro had work at 8, lol n we reach home at 7.. poor them la... then i slept till 12+ woke up n went to eat with my 3rd bro then blah blah..

YTD;
went for sch remedial, alamak so hard la emaths... then went to tmall with qiao yan, pei yun n roys . didnt know wad to eat then we went to Ajisen n ate ramen.. alamak pei yun ass one leh.. she nt enuf money, then i pay for her first, in the end she only ate the vegetables n some noodle only, the rest push to me... alamak i ate volcano spicy ramen with qiao yan n its lik... so spicy la.. alamak.. finish alr still nid to eat pei yun's lame vegetable ramen.. was soooo full.. then went back sch for physics remedial, alamak 1st time see Ms Sakinah so slack =X was fun la, she look so happy oso, if every lesson can b so relaxing n able to learn.. wouldnt it b nice?... somemore the sch so quiet dun hav little kids shouting around ppl kpkb, was so peaceful... peaceful until we blow the bubble thing, my fren bought, walau Ms sakinah found out oso nvr scold sia, then ppl eat bubblegum, eat sweet, she see oso nvr scold just say "very nice ah?" so funny la..
then after tt someone suggested to go roys house, then roys came to my hse to hide from the rain, n then we went, after tt we play play play.. then my 3rd bro sounded really bored at home , then i rushed home to cure his boredom, alamak he just finished playing with adrian n my 2nd bro was home... then at roys hse , roys n my bro play dota la.. lik alamak roys ah we went to ur house to play, not to go there see u pwn my brother n kpkb abt it la.. i was nearly bored to death, or rather me, dickson n ck was bored to death.. alamak roys ah.. then somemore show off to me for wad, its like.. "HELLO ur toking abt my brother here? u think i will b happy when u keep killing him in dota lik really fun" bodoh.. i was kinda pissed la n my bro i bet was pissed too, win win la, nth to kp abt la.. then went home n started playing, roys came in, we played, alamak roys again... lose then say lag or comp sux, win then say WAHAHAHA 1 more kill 1 more kill, alamak my bro fren oso irritated by him la... he has to quit tt habit if not i think 1 day if he come my hse my bro will beat him up.

then today;
walau woke up at 6 in the morning.. was really really tired..there was chorale exchange... then dragged myself all around the house.. until lik.. 7, then i started brushing teeth n bathing, then was lazy to mak my hair lik half stand then dont stand too much, i just push them all up... then went to sch, then we went to juuurong...west... long way there... slept nearly half the journey to there.. hua yi sec..
then sing sing sing... then break, we all chatted around, then went back up n chat with mrs lee oso, then alamak mrs lee ask me abt my poa marks.. i was shocked la.. lik... hmm? when i become express class how she know..? then ayia.. is mr teo tell her one.. booo... T_T after tt each school performed.. then went back, alamak.. the way back to sch oso long, i slept all the way back.. then went to eat, wa then keep meeting mrs lee at tmart, she met us at food court, she buy food, then when me n kai jie walk home, met her again, so fated ^^
then came home.... saw a few sms.. wa my big bro want to go lan shop n play dota again.. then tmr morning gona b super tired le ... T_T havent touch homework... busy... playing ;P
so... bb!!! ^^

missing;4:09 PM

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