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Friday, December 28, 2007

yays holidays almost over
i'm happy and both sad!!!!!
Happy;
im going to sec 5!~ cant wait to study! and go to poly! at last there wont b weekdays where im lazing around the house doin nothing
wells its back to the tiring life style of school again~ but this time.. *sumpa* i really am ready to study!! i hope
Sad;
no more going for midnight movies T_T n midnight partying , i'll end up sleeping in class ...
wellz... will b having lesser time to find good food and fun places... once sec 5 is over... >=) muahahha im will b the king of the world!!!! not.

hmmm few events of the pass few weeks
Batam trip;
went to batam with my big bro and frens, it was relaxing 3 days 2 night...
actually abit crazy too..
we played bowling till our arms ache and our skin tear!! my thumb still hav 3 blisters T_T
we played kayak! i was in a double with my da sao, i accidently slice her shoulder with the paddle T_T sry da sao~!
well 1 freaky event during kayak... we were racing in the sea and we saw this huge piece of forestly-like-beachy- thing so we thought it was a piece of land and a beach with some forest, so me n my da sao have muscular arms menzzz!!! so we paddled really fast towards it, half way we saw the things coming out of the water~!!!! eekz~ i thought it was bunch of fishes or wad but it wasnt!!! it was a whole patch of sandy, old, long seaweeds~ eeee they looked lik tentacles of an ugly monster T_T me n da sao freaked out XD it was really gross... so we thought.. faster roll to that "beach" and rest!!! so we rolled really really fast! then suddenly da sao said "y that "beach" seems to be... flowing? omgzzzzz i saw the so called "sandy beach" was really wavy wavy like water... then we floated nearer...n we found out tht it was... 1 BIG PATCH OF OVERGROWN SWAMP!!!! OMGZZZ it was freaky la.... it looked lik a big island lik the one in Lost
but its a swamp!!! big big swampy...seaweedy...dirty...sandy... .. thing!! we hurried and turned the kayak and rowed over those stupid seaweeds again! n we shouted at the others to stop rowing towards the "beach" coz its not a BEACH!!!!! its an over grown swamp floating in the sea!! omfg
so we rowed our way back to open sea.. and we played around ba... i kept turning back n see tht overgrown patch of swamp... it really looked lik a big piece of island.... lucky we didnt row too fast... if not ... eee...
anyway during the trip we ate alot of good food
1st day we ate Harris Resort's food
it was quite expensive... n... not very nice to b honest... the green curry was... HOT
the ginger bread looked nice n the others said it was nice.. and its BIG
the spaghetti didnt look... nice but its also BIG
the food there comes in big portions...very very big..
for dinner we went to a jap-korean restaurant
i called a bowl of Kymchi Udon~ i tot its just a small bowl lik the one at tamp mart... but... its a big claypot of udons.... ~_~
the tofu oso, the fried tofu omgzz at ajisen its lik... 1 small bowl, at there... its even bigger than the udon at tamp mart!! its.. hugeeee n the tofu is... hugeee and theres loads of them
and there was sashimi...geez... how long did they put those pure raw fishy in the fridge...
30 years?
it tasted lik slurpee ... wellz it was the best meal i ever had there except for the sashimi
both meals costed 100+ each... geez 1st day n we spent 200 on food...
theres this monkey hut place where we can rent kayak,jet ski, banana boat and etc
normally in singapore , shop just called their shop for fun, in this case... there really was monkeys, there was 1 baby money n 1 teenage monkey
was cute, well the food there, we ordered some sandwiches, it was.. big...2 times the size of singapore's mama shop sandwich and its thick... real thick, we also ate the zi char, was not very good ... n we ate hor fun and stuff.. n found out that... their msg and pepper is free... they put like 1 cup of each in 1 plate of hor fun? zzz... we also went to nagoya mall
oh geez there was another thing tht happened
my bro n frens were planning to buy some beer back to the resort n at night to party abit,and so they bought lik 20+ into the trolley, at first i saw 2 guys looking at those beers in our trolley, so i thought lik..mayb their just curious y we bought so much beer? then i noticed tht they kept following us every wher we go, everytime i turn n look at them, they seem to b looking at the shelves as soon as we turned, they stoppped n looked n followed us, lik... their stupid or something ? ppl can see with the side of their eyes right? it was obvious tht i saw them alr
well they followed, we were looking at the tooth brushes and suddenly i saw 1 of the guy, he was wearing a white top and a white singlet inside, and he stood right behind my fren, my fren was carrying a small bag n putting it behind him, so i saw the laces on his bag moving, but he isnt... n tht guy seemed to b looking somewhere else, lik trying to camoflage himself when hes hands was clearly... in the bag? so i kept staring at him... i duno y...
some how i could see tht hes trying to steal his things? from every view ? i duno la.. i always have this wierd feeling tht im in some sort of trances.. and i can see things clearly, but the sight doesnt seem to b coming from me... :S sounds creepy... well i was standing there if i can call it... "daydreaming"? n i had a bad feeling abt tht guy, then my fren turned n looked at him n walked towards us, and say tht he felt someone touching his bag
geez... i was thinking.. i knew tht he was trying to steal... but y did i froze there... -.- i was kinda confused bout it... but.. blahh
then the 2 guys didnt followed us anymore
at the hypermarket we saw some huge durians, they were like... 2 times the size of my chest? geeez it was gigantic... tht thing can kill a person... seriously
but i think its only gigantic on the outside...they were selling the flesh of the durian in packets, although some are really big, but they dont fit the huge durian's sizes... so its kinda fake
wellz then there was A&W!!! woot havent seen tht for ages... i last saw it at changi airport last time b4 it disappeared from singapore
loved the onion rings wootzz wellz then we saw BFC best fried chicken.. haha cute
wellz then we went back to the resort
after kayaking we went for a swim at the pool, well not We, They, i dont know how to swim T_T
n i dont seemed to get it... o wellz i'll suffer during ns? T_T then on the 3rd day we played go cart
the go carts there are faster,bigger,more fun then the one at escape, haizz but i suck at it
wellz tht was abt all during the batam trip, i didnt took much pics so and oso kinda lazy to post them...
too bad then

missing;1:28 PM

Thursday, December 20, 2007

15th of december 2007
my grandfather passed away...
i didnt went to the hospital to see him as i thought, i didnt want to see the way he looked lik now
as my brothers described how skinny he became day by day...
i remembered him as my ah gong, a dashing man, with wonderful features and strong body
he was my superman when i was 6
i used to compare my ah gong with superman on tv, and i find them similar
and since i was young i thought my grandfather was my superhero
ever since a quarrel between my parents happened, i havent seen my grandfather n grandmother for many years
and till now i havent seen my grandfather yet.

16th december 2007
i received the news that he passed away...
and so we went to the funeral, and saw everyone there
my aunties and uncles with their sons and daughters

17th december 2007
i went home the previous night as i went out for quite a long time the day b4
and so i went home to tak a good night sleep
we went to the funeral and 7+ and sat around
i was accompanying my mother while my brothers helped around
my grandfather is a christian and so they gathered to sing a song for him
and after that they was given a chance to go up front and say out wad they feel for my grandfather
my aunties teared when they talked about him
and my uncles clenching their fists and biting their lips as they try to resist crying

18th december 2007
i was taking my N level result that day, was a great day for me as i was excited
i went to school and got my results , i was promoted next year i was really happy
English - 3
Humanities - 3
Chinese - 4
Science - 3
Poa - 5

L3 = 9 points
Remarks = Promoted

then i ate lunch and headed for the funeral, we stayed there thru the night as ppl filled the place at night and then emptied as morning came

19th december 2007
it was the day to cremate
as my grandfather was taken to the van
many couldnt resist and cried
my mum doesnt have a strong body, as she cant tak blows
she cried as we walked with the van and she fainted
bringing her to the bus she kept saying she want to go she really want to go..
and so we went up the bus
it was very long ago ever since i saw my parents holding hands and sitting side by side
it was a long journey there and many took a nap
as we arrived mandai cremating place
we went to the service hall, i remembered clearly it was Service hall 1
we sang 3 songs before saying good bye
when we were asked to stand around my grandfather, and friends giving their wishes to us and encouraging us, many cried
after that he was sent for cremating
at a small hall where theres a glass wall for us to see
many cried even harder as they saw grandfather
my mum cried so hard that she fainted for the 2nd time, my big bro carried her to a side and massage her head
and as that happened i heard my father shouting "Thank the lord!"
i've nvr heard my father ever shouted lik that, he was in pain..
we went outside for a drink and a break
after that we went back for lunch
my big bro didnt seemed to have appetite as he left the bowl of rice touched only for 1 mouthful of rice
well.. many of us were the same..
for the son to see their parents in so much pain and sadness... who wont feel the same way as well
as we went back for lunch, on the bus i sat with my parents at the back, i was thinking about the memories , the only memories i had with my grandfather and that was till i was 13
it has been 3 years ever since i've met my relatives
i remembered when i was 6, my grandfather always carry me to his laps and i always sleep on his laps when i was bored
i remember singing on the mic infront of everyone and i wasnt shy at all
i remember eating snacks and playing cards together during chinese new year
for a few times that day, when we were at the service hall, when we were at the bus, when we were at the viewing hall, and when we were singing the songs, i felt the warmth of my grandfather's fingers and palm, touching mine, it was the feeling when i sat on his laps and he always hold me tightly with his warm hands
after we had lunch we head back to mandai to collect his bones and ashes
we gathered as we put his bones into the beautifully made urn
and we went up to the columbariam... or...columarium.. i forgot wad it was called
and we waited as the person sealed the urn into the slot
and then we walked around the place looking at other ppl's loved ones
i saw many flowers and cards and 1 that said "Happy birthday daddy"
it was really touching to see that
and if u ever go there, try looking at them as 1 big colum, and u'll see a really nice sight as all the flowers of diff colour looked, it was lik a magical garden, guarding the remainings of our loved ones
wells then we head on home , my bros went to sleep, and me, my mum and my 3rd bro had dinner then went home to sleep.. it was the easiest sleep i'v ever had since a long time.. where i just hav to close my eyes and just lie down there... no need for toss and turns... when i woke up i saw my parents sleeping in the same bed and the small bed was moved a side..
my grandfather did bless on the family, as i saw my parents holding hands to tightly, as though they were telling each other how much they love each other.
All thanks to my superhero grandfather.

missing;7:07 AM

Friday, December 28, 2007

Thursday, December 20, 2007

about.

Scream of Pain

past.

merci.