Something is Amiss

Sunday, June 29, 2008

today sucks...
woke up feeling so sick..
like something stuck in my throat... fuck
kept wondering... about things..
stone here and there.. dream there n here..
sigh.. monday got school again...
nowadays i don't seem to appreciate sundays much... i hate sundays...
it signify the end of happiness and start of pain..
i've been thinking about some words my fren tell me about me..

makes me think that i've been really ignorant,selfish, think i'm always right, dont heed people's advice, dont give people chance, anti social, fucker, asshole, atmosphere destroyer, naive, childish, overestimate myself and underestimate others...

i dont give ppl chance to make frens with me...
but the least for me to do was to respect them for doing nothing, but i gav them attitude and be an ass..
i dont accept people's decision even though i say i'm ok with it, actually i mind alot...
i'm such a moron who can't accept failure and other's objections..
i keep thinking perfectionist are morons n irritating, n i keep pointing out other ppl being a perfectionist..
but i didnt realize, i,myself is a fucking perfectionist as well...
y cant i just accept failure and take consequences for not being good enough...
fuck man...
it fucks me up knowing that i'm a perfectionist... i keep telling other ppl nothing is perfect, dont ask for perfect, in the end i ask for so much in my own life...
tmd ccb la.
fuck man today is a fucking shit ass day..

missing;2:06 PM

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Boooo havent been posting...
so sorry..
schools back
i'm sad
too bad

tho cannot get over the fact that theres no time for chillin n relaxing but, u know... sometimes just have to work hard ba..
i've nvr really worked HARD in my life, i've nvr really tried 110% in anything in my life, so mayb i can in...academic? i doubt it, but will try.

well today is thur, 4 days after school opened
my moods just kinda decelerating, monday i was okay, slowly to tues,wed n today, im just sleepy,dead beat n fucked up
im like there trying to go back to dream land... fly around in my dreams n clouds..
but reality just keep smacking my face constantly, again n again n again.. geez lik fuck off la...
let me dream abit more can... sian diao

Today;
my class have new form tutor or rather, we got a form tutor, non other then Miss Sakinah Sarip, oh... my... lord... SFL, Rise anything that is a waste of time, just tense with ms sakinah there...
well its just kind of a plan since sec 1, let the teachers think ur innocent, it will save u many punishments and scoldings, but nowadays.. its just getting harder n harder, the teachers are like getting smarter la..
sometimes dumber oso la but u know...
well maths lesson today was as usual, we chill, we do our own maths, mr lourde helps around, takes his student pass and go out, crack some silly jokes, we talked about Little Brittain today, gosh they were just nuts la.. haha irfan was like making me burst out in laughter
geography was already in tired mode... then i really wanted to do work, well it just didnt really happened, sometimes things just don't go the way people wants them to be
but yeah, i will still work hard on it
last lesson before SFL was english, walau eh zul's group is just burning with information la
1 presentation they took about... 2 lessons to present and they still have lik 3 or 4 more slides to go
makes me feel tensed abt my project, well we did discuss about some changes n modifications so... yeah that would probably make an Anti Scolding shield?
SFL we had class spruce up, was fun drawing... designing.... colouring... chillin... chatting... i just love these moments la.. would be memorable in future
its a shame that i didnt have a camera to take pictures n keep them.. well hope i can do that one day

tmr have PE... weee.. 2 lessons wasted to free time periods + healthy workouts
NOT BAD....haha
tmr oso going ck house for.. UNO SPIN~ good lords... i waited one whole week for that!
i'm sure it will be fun...

was thinking bout all the friends i've met in my life, its kind of nice to think of the sweet moments with all my friends..
but i did noticed theres only 2 friends who were actually closed to my mum, the rest are like... "ok.. thats his mum... i betta watch wad i say, or mayb i just keep quiet..." instead their like "woah auntie ur rockin! blahblah.."
i'm having an urge to buy a new bag! but i don't know where to get and what to get, another zinc? pasa malam bag again? 77th streets? billabong?... addidas..? nooo..
hope it works out before i can't take my current bags
the vodoo bag is just so darn troublesome to take around, the hands n legs of the bag flies everywhere when i walk its like someone is touching me everytime, won't know when someone is really actually touching me haha
ok nvm..
i have quite a few things i want to do...
i want a new bag..
i want to eat japanese food...
i want to eat crab...
i want to take a good and relaxing nap..
i want to go on a holiday

i also have a few things that i have achieved.
i can do a trading profit and loss account without referring or copying from previous work!
i am actually blogging right now!
i am watching.. TV OMG!
i love unospin!
i owned my brothers many time in dota! wohooo
i went to mr leong's cafe!
i cant believe so many fishes died at home in the fish tank!
i found X-ING on the road! its my name!
i am eating red bean bun now! yummy...

wow i achieved alot... i'm a victor!
ok i feel pumped up for tmr!!!
i'm readyyyy!!

missing;10:57 PM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

blogging time!
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Last Friday
7.6.08
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went out with ck,hui yin,shi Qiuu,kill Axe, yee daa and telly~
we went to makan pizza hut
was suppose to celebrate dickson's belated bday...
but he couldnt make it!! alamak... dickson..y...
then we makan makan, pizza hut service getting from bad to worse la
the ppl there lik no diff from malaysian
dont get hand signs n cant understand english
all they do is clean, clean, clean
lagi worse
out of abt 10+ staffs, non saw us at the VERY VERY noticable corner
alamak...
oh ya before makaning, we went shopping abit
went popular walk walk
after makan we shopping againz
qx went to isetan to buy a shirt
we walked around isetan and crapped around
throw face la ~_~ we act lik isetan we open one haha
then went downstairs coz some of them wanted to eat crepe
alamak, dont lik crepes la, abit.. :S
then we went to our fav spot in tampines mall...
TOYS R` US!
we simply went in there as kids la haha,play lik no body bussiness
poor thing la the staff there, the place is forever in a mess, products are all ripped n destroyed
tooo bad
after tht we went to the Arcade while the girls headed home
oooo tmall arcade having a renovation
they have booths tht can redeem prizes! weee
after tht all of us went home~
well almost all of us
Mr Adrian Ng and Mrs Penny Ng called
those 2 auntie n uncle nothing to do want go ktv ~_~
went home changed my pants n went out again
met them at loyang point
ok, so there was me,him and her
not that i have limited vocabulary, but there was only 3 of us
alamak ~_~
then we went it, was really awkward, coz its only.. me,him n her
the beers came in, atmosphere stayed the same
UNTIL they called wind to head down oso
then when wind came for no reason we started playing
cai quan and hei bai chey
auntie Ng gila la... laugh n scream lik nobody bussiness
but was really fun :D
then we played n play our jug of beer is gone.. was lik "awww"
lik.. y 1 jug nia? sianz
before tht they told me abt a bag tht Mrs Ng found in the toilet, i got abit creeped out...
Uncle Ng thought it might be haunted
as usual Auntie outofordinary Ng thought it was a terrorist bomb..
alamak... how? i oso think its haunted coz she tell me with a face macham telling me its haunted..
wad to do? i scared ghost :(
then we played with Teh Beng and last sip of beer tht Mrs Ng had, alamak y i so dumb got teh beng dun wan drink stil wan play with her...
then after singing n drinking so much water, had to pee alot ~_~
then r1 gav me 10 bucks to take a cab home with wind
i didnt bother to ask y he give me 10 bucks -.-
coz they sure say i still small, nvm, im lik their little brother
then niko will say, u not 18 yet, wait u 18 then u grown up liao
aff.. lik that make me scared to reach 18... pamper me lik that T_T
but its nice to hav a sister+brother lik them! their a couple of funny lovebirds :P
Jyjy on their love~

8.6.08
SOMEONE DIED TODAY!!! :(
my 2nd bro bought 3 lobsters back from the fish shop
put inside the tank, after 1 minute, the lobster ate the $3 transparent catfish
omg the catfish was struggling lik siao...
the catfish was hiding for so long under that log! a $3.50 lobster ended its effort to be as transparent as possible.. dumb la those catfish duno how to run
then the cute n dumb puffer fish, follow all the way behind the lobster not knowing tht it can eat itself anytime
took out the lobsters n the half eaten catfish...
the catfish was still moving even though half of its body was ripped off n eaten...
it was really cruel n sad to see la.. although only FISH
but the catfish was struggling T_T then the lobster just used it pincer n ripped its body n eat it up bit by bit... :(
then Merissa da sao funny la, go twick the lobster
she say she not gan yan to see the lobster eat the fish
lolz i freaked out when she twick the lobster with her finger, lol was expecting 1 of the lobster on her finger when her hand came out of the container
lolz...
ok thts the end of the Sad story of the Transparent Catfish
:( sad

10.6.08
kena woken up by the bangalah cleaning the hdb flat walls.. walau use the water hose shoot water right at my window, i was wet from head to toe WAKAUZ!
then mum cooked rice for the 1st time after abt...3 years for my meal of the day
wooo life without needing to walk downstairs all the way to 445 to buy mee pok or xiao guo mian is good~
just got banned in the stupid maple story private svr -.- the gm so unfair de
help fren ban his players for quarreling
oh wells at least now got time to play dota with my 2nd bro
and go out more, no nid spend time selling meso and worry about wad hair i will get by randoming

missing;12:01 AM

Sunday, June 29, 2008

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