Something is Amiss

Thursday, December 20, 2007

15th of december 2007
my grandfather passed away...
i didnt went to the hospital to see him as i thought, i didnt want to see the way he looked lik now
as my brothers described how skinny he became day by day...
i remembered him as my ah gong, a dashing man, with wonderful features and strong body
he was my superman when i was 6
i used to compare my ah gong with superman on tv, and i find them similar
and since i was young i thought my grandfather was my superhero
ever since a quarrel between my parents happened, i havent seen my grandfather n grandmother for many years
and till now i havent seen my grandfather yet.

16th december 2007
i received the news that he passed away...
and so we went to the funeral, and saw everyone there
my aunties and uncles with their sons and daughters

17th december 2007
i went home the previous night as i went out for quite a long time the day b4
and so i went home to tak a good night sleep
we went to the funeral and 7+ and sat around
i was accompanying my mother while my brothers helped around
my grandfather is a christian and so they gathered to sing a song for him
and after that they was given a chance to go up front and say out wad they feel for my grandfather
my aunties teared when they talked about him
and my uncles clenching their fists and biting their lips as they try to resist crying

18th december 2007
i was taking my N level result that day, was a great day for me as i was excited
i went to school and got my results , i was promoted next year i was really happy
English - 3
Humanities - 3
Chinese - 4
Science - 3
Poa - 5

L3 = 9 points
Remarks = Promoted

then i ate lunch and headed for the funeral, we stayed there thru the night as ppl filled the place at night and then emptied as morning came

19th december 2007
it was the day to cremate
as my grandfather was taken to the van
many couldnt resist and cried
my mum doesnt have a strong body, as she cant tak blows
she cried as we walked with the van and she fainted
bringing her to the bus she kept saying she want to go she really want to go..
and so we went up the bus
it was very long ago ever since i saw my parents holding hands and sitting side by side
it was a long journey there and many took a nap
as we arrived mandai cremating place
we went to the service hall, i remembered clearly it was Service hall 1
we sang 3 songs before saying good bye
when we were asked to stand around my grandfather, and friends giving their wishes to us and encouraging us, many cried
after that he was sent for cremating
at a small hall where theres a glass wall for us to see
many cried even harder as they saw grandfather
my mum cried so hard that she fainted for the 2nd time, my big bro carried her to a side and massage her head
and as that happened i heard my father shouting "Thank the lord!"
i've nvr heard my father ever shouted lik that, he was in pain..
we went outside for a drink and a break
after that we went back for lunch
my big bro didnt seemed to have appetite as he left the bowl of rice touched only for 1 mouthful of rice
well.. many of us were the same..
for the son to see their parents in so much pain and sadness... who wont feel the same way as well
as we went back for lunch, on the bus i sat with my parents at the back, i was thinking about the memories , the only memories i had with my grandfather and that was till i was 13
it has been 3 years ever since i've met my relatives
i remembered when i was 6, my grandfather always carry me to his laps and i always sleep on his laps when i was bored
i remember singing on the mic infront of everyone and i wasnt shy at all
i remember eating snacks and playing cards together during chinese new year
for a few times that day, when we were at the service hall, when we were at the bus, when we were at the viewing hall, and when we were singing the songs, i felt the warmth of my grandfather's fingers and palm, touching mine, it was the feeling when i sat on his laps and he always hold me tightly with his warm hands
after we had lunch we head back to mandai to collect his bones and ashes
we gathered as we put his bones into the beautifully made urn
and we went up to the columbariam... or...columarium.. i forgot wad it was called
and we waited as the person sealed the urn into the slot
and then we walked around the place looking at other ppl's loved ones
i saw many flowers and cards and 1 that said "Happy birthday daddy"
it was really touching to see that
and if u ever go there, try looking at them as 1 big colum, and u'll see a really nice sight as all the flowers of diff colour looked, it was lik a magical garden, guarding the remainings of our loved ones
wells then we head on home , my bros went to sleep, and me, my mum and my 3rd bro had dinner then went home to sleep.. it was the easiest sleep i'v ever had since a long time.. where i just hav to close my eyes and just lie down there... no need for toss and turns... when i woke up i saw my parents sleeping in the same bed and the small bed was moved a side..
my grandfather did bless on the family, as i saw my parents holding hands to tightly, as though they were telling each other how much they love each other.
All thanks to my superhero grandfather.

missing;7:07 AM

Thursday, December 20, 2007

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merci.