Something is Amiss

Sunday, July 13, 2008

eh...
i ate chilli crab for dinner at Block 419
went to Ming house do project
but i got there pretty late
so i watched them play metal slug and smack down..
went to T mart with Chun
bought some snacks n went to fitness corner eat n chat
[g0p] rules
others drool
haha
my life now can say is really peaceful... no more dramas in my life, just facts and painful truths
like Chun said, peaceful life might not be best, theres no action, no drama, life is boring
people who have too much drama in life, wishes for peace
people who have too much peace in life, long for drama
how i wish i can live as a super rich ass
where i live in a mansion, with lots of maid to serve me, remedial classes right at home
lessons to learn manners, table manners, sitting manners, speech manners
where my family earns money lik crazy, spends money lik hell
where money is never a factor in our lives
i wish to be controlled by strict rules and be scolded for bad manners...

those who have freedom, would wish to be controlled
those who are controlled, wishes for freedom..
primary keep defying my mum, she used to beat me everyday for getting home late
after school, go playground till 6+
after remedial go playground till 7+
everytime i get home i have to prepare myself to get whacked...
primary 5, my mum starts to get tired of beating
primary 6, my mum stopped scolding me for reaching home late
sec 1 my mum stopped asking me whether i finished homework
sec 2 i didnt need to inform my mum when i go out
sec 3 my mum dont even know when my exams were, neither does she know exactly wad class i'm in
sec 4 i have to settle my own meals everyday
sec 5 theres no rules anymore

if life would have been lik this:
primary 5, i was grounded for reaching home 5 minutes late
primary 6, i was grounded for failing my spelling
sec 1, i was grounded for failing my exam
sec 2, i was grounded for not doing my chores
sec 3, i was grounded for not going to express
sec 4, i was grounded for not calling home when i ate outside
sec 5, i was grounded for losing my home keys
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my life would have been strict, but at least i know that im walking in the right path in life
but the grass is always greener on the other side, if i would have been brought up strict, i would want freedom
i would not appreciate control freaks and rules as much as i do right now
everytime i try to control myself, i fail
i cant even make a promise to myself to go to bed by 10 o clock...
i've nvr slept on time before
i've nvr studied before, all those psle, exams, all i used was wad i remember during class by a certain event like, when miss sakinah got so angry just becoz the whole class forgot about formula for total resistance, 1/Rt= 1/R1+ 1/R2
besides that, all i have been using is just common sense and luck..
thats y i love geography and english
wadever they ask u... just use common sense and answer
copy from passage la, use brain think lor, remember all the documentary i watched lor
direction of rivers? look at the contour lines lor, where got water flow upwards one
thats y now all those chemistry la, maths la, ss formats, poa
i got no idea wad they are toking about
how come neutralisation produce water? they neutralise wad y must water?
y is Purchases on debit side and Sales on Credit side? isnt debit side +? sales is a + wad
purchases u spend money, isnt it a - coz u spend money wad
y must make so many books?
y must remember all those ss formats? y cant we just answer with our brains, we dont use formats to answer questions in ours lives, y we even learning so many things that we dont actually apply in life?
people always say "try out the subject, just try, maybe u have talent in it"
wad if im sure that i dont have talent in it? y am i studying it? y is taking those subjects that im not good in compulsory?
does learning all the pollution and resources scarcity useful?
wads the use when u learn them, and u counter ur own learning with reasons such as "once we stop using electricity, the world will end. if we stop using fuel, the world will die"
lolz all that would happen if we dont use electricity and fuel is that theres no more computer, no more air con, no more big bussiness, no more development
we wont "die" without development la
only people who cant take failure and hardship will die, coz they noob
then irritating thing is hor, when ppl tell u "EEE dun waste food la, u know hor africa *blahblahblah*"
this kind of ppl hor is serious like.. "really har? u nvr wasted food in ur life? u eat rice dont have a single bit left? u drink water drink until the cup dry?"
rubbish la
i remember got 1 time
1 teacher showed us a picture of an african kid in the dessert, crawling alone in the dessert
and a few vultures were beside him
we were told that the photographer who took the picture suicided few days later after receiving the award for best picture
lolz, siao ah, we ask the teacher "lol y not just give the kid something to eat and drink n carry him to safety la"
then the teacher say "cannot, they were not allowed to touch anyone there, their job was just to take picture"
lolz so wad have these ppl been learning in school? their school teach them to not follow their common sense and just do as told ah
crazy, photographer cant save ppl ah
haiss... stupid la
everytime after chatting with Chun hor, will think of so manythings de
coz those things that he says, really make sense
like, it IS really irritating to see people playing Mahjong and drinking BEER during a funeral
lol i told him just now if my funeral anyone dun treat it seriously, prepare to see me in their dreams haunting them until they die
kk enuf posting le, byebyes

missing;8:57 PM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

about.

Scream of Pain

past.

merci.