missing;10:17 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
I missed another chance...
it took me so much to say, but you missed it in time..
was such a coincidence...
but this coincident made me.. disappointed..
is fate playing tricks at me at that critical moment?
why? =/
will there be more chances? i've missed it.. so many times..
you'd be disappointed to see how many times i've take these chances for granted right?..
no matter how hard i pushed myself..
i just couldnt show you..
just how much i really..
love you..
and as time keep on moving so fast...
i can't catch up...
coz your always on time
and i'm always late and missing my chances
i don't care what the future may be..
i dont want to be perfect for you..
i just want to be with you..
i just want to tell you..
i still love you.
missing;12:04 AM
Friday, August 01, 2008
Another week have passed...
threw tantrum on my mum before heading to school...
i hate it when i'm blamed for when things in the house is fucking up
mind you i AM the youngest for goodness sake
and i seemed to be the only one keeping the house in proper condition
i hate it when people give me empty promises
what for if your not gona fucking follow it
and go on dirtying the house with the stupid cig buds
and i'm to blamed for when the astray drops and dirty the house? im not the one whos smoking at home OKAY?
blaming me for the stupid bed sheets when SOMEONE sleeps there the every single day
how long do i go in the room? at 7 o clock i go in watch tv till 8, then i go living room to play comp, at 10 i go back in till 11, 2 pathetic hours, and i'm to blamed for when the rooms in a mess? how bout the PERSON who SLEEPS in there? LAZY say LAZY stop blaming ppl la
fucking dishes, everyones blaming me for leaving the dishes there for days
so I'M one who keeps pestering my father with the stupid chinese medicine and CUP by CUP and just leave them around the kitchen? so I'M the one who drinks KOPI-C and puts them AROUND the living room?
I'M the only SOUL in the house that uses tissue paper?
for fuck sake why is my own family taking me for granted?
i dont earn money fine
BUT WHO THE FUCK IS THE ONE CLEANING THE HOUSE BIT BY BIT?
i dont do dishes? IF I DONT DO DISHES THE KITCHEN WILL BE A BIG FUCK NOW
i dont tidy the house? IF I REALLY DONT, I WILL MAKE IT WORSE
im blamed for when the floor is dirty?
so what i'm suppose to do? when everyones just using "YOUR THE ONLY ONE AT HOME ALL DAY"
i dont fucking go to school?
i dont fucking go out with my frens?
when i stay at home, they say me stay at home all day do nothing, dont earn money
i go out alot, they say that i can dun nid come home since i like go out so much
SO FREE AH? PLAYING WITH MY ISIT? i dont fucking think its funny lor
come home, nothing to do, all see me then say fucking crap to me
a family of 6
i have to hear that crap from everyone?
so what im suppose to do? leave home? run away from home? then i'd be appreciated at my own home with my own family?
the most pathetic reason to use on me is to "Confiscate" all the computer and psp
what the fuck do those people think i am la
i can live without technology la
if want to play CAN, lets see how big a mess it will be if i dont clean up
lets see if your CHARACTER would be ALIVE in ur stupid game
stop using the same reason over n over again la
everyone thinks its crap, the game IS NOT earning ANY MONEY
playing to pay internet bills is just a BIG FAT CRAP
Stop making conclusions on the "Negative" things that people do when you were never there when the positive things happened coz i'm sick and tired of you people
I saw you in the crowd alone... motionless
At that moment i wished i could go to you
And put a smile at your face before leaving you for the day..
Sorry but i didn't
missing;4:39 PM