Something is Amiss

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

its just ironic how things can be even when ur having a major exam
some fuck shits just cant stop even when its during an important period
its like wadever happens to u dont even matter

well i dont give a fuck anyway
i'll will work my best for the exam

and anyone just disrupts my way WILL BE HATED :P

lies are normally taken easily for me
since i lie alot, in many things in life i lie
and i dont mind being lied to as well
but theres just 1 particular lie that i cant except
and it happened
that kind of lie for others sympathy and support, thats just fucking pathetic isnt it?
and worse is its from someone who has a part in your birth, fucking pathetic

i told my mum when we talked 1 on 1 in her room yesterday
i've lost all respect for him, when the issue wasnt as bad i still call him and address him as who he is.
but now i've lost all my faith in him , the sight of him just disgust me
i dont moan about why this kind of problem is happening in my life
but i moan about why do i even have to look at such a pathetic person everyday?
and his family, what kind of upbring did they have to nurture such people?
and i have their blood in me?
i'd love to cut every veins in me and dry up all the blood in my body and i dont care whos, but i want someone else's blood flowing in me

i know its bad for me to say such things about "them"
but they deserves a big fucking scolding on what the fuck they have been living their lives for
if they can just sit in their fucking chair with their fucking fat asses, pointing and maligning people and judging people
My god, what the fuck gave them such rights?
i have respect for only 1 person in that family, and this person is the only reason y im still proud of my surname and keeping my origins
although he isnt in this world anymore, but i can shed as much tears, shed as much blood for that person, and the feelings are all true from my heart
even though we havent been close grandson and grandfather relationship
but at least my respect for him still lives

for the rest of them, im not gona curse and swear at them, its just wasting my own karma
i'd rather spend my life doing things more meaningful

I don't cry over spilled milk,
I find solution to get myself another glass of fresh milk
I'm not strong, nor am i weak
but at least i know my own conscience of being a living person
and i respect myself for that.

missing;12:06 AM

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

about.

Scream of Pain

past.

merci.