Saturday, October 11, 2008

something is wrong with me today...
i dont know why and whats making it...
i got home yesterday after a badminton game .. i suddenly felt so tired and down...
ended up i hav to break the promise i made to do a dedication for everyone after graduation day..
i just couldnt do it..
i couldnt find the mood to do it

woke up this morning...
felt so empty
i spaced out the whole morning
watched FF7 advent children which i found on my brother's bed
its really nice... somehow i just wish i can live in any of those world in the movies, cartoons and animes...

Somethings missing... i dont know what...
something missing that i've not realised ever since the start of time
its not love...
its not desire...
its not exam..
not stress
not family
not friends
not grieves
not vengeance
not hatred...

theres just something thats missing..
theres always been a feeling like i've forgotten something,
somethings that allows me to know what my purpose are...
but i've forgotten it due to time
its like a glimpse of my previous life
like images of things that seemed so familiar flashing thru everyday...
dejavu? no...
although there has been time where i did have dejavu which end up happening
which is probably called premonitions.
but this feeling i've had is far more different
its like a feeling like your not from this world

maybe i just think too much...
but theres time when i kind of really wants to know what comes after death
does heaven and hell really exsist?
is there a place which we will go after we die?
or we will just become nothing at all after that
an eternal slumber?

we all want and yearn for things
i really want to do many things
reaching to people's hearts with music
helping people all over the world
but how can that be done when your just a normal individual

i've been spacing out since this morning...
i just dont know why

can there be a proper explanation...?
sometimes i just want to stop everything
stop listening
stop looking
stop feeling
i just want to feel nothing at all.

missing;3:00 PM

about.

Sam
Singaporean
14th January 1991
Searching....
For...
The...
Thing...
I've...
Lost..

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What should people know bout me?
.Don't Push my buttons
.Its not easy pushing my buttons
.I'm NOT always happy when i smile
.I love sweet things
.I'm quite thick skin
.But shy at certain times
.When I don't chat with you doesn't mean I don't want to be friends with you
.Just wait for awhile and time will tell

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Brothers of [g0p]
Kuku de Family
Shoppin
Bugis
Jelly beans (Cocoa Tree)
Badminton'ing session
Rainbow
Sun Rise/Set
Superstition
Mythbuster
Documentary
Dota
Piano
My Family




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5N1 Yr 2008.

Kai Li.

Edwyna.

Edmund.

Naemah.

Wei Ming.

Firdaus.

Kai Jie.

Hong Boon.

Kalverty.

Jia Liing.

Lois.

Joanne.

Serene.

Janna.

Viola.

Michelle.

Amanda.

Beverly.

Alicia.

Joey.

Amanda Chan.

Deeron.

Hui Yin.

Clinton.

Nicholas.

Madeline.

Khairiyah.

Syahirah.

Shiqi.

Peiyun.

Yida.

Wan jun.

Rabiatul.

Annisaa.

Mardhiah.

Irfan.

Ridwan.

Hanisah.

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