Wednesday, December 10, 2008

i feel sad today :(
was smsing with shiqi on the bus then i dont know y i got cranky and moody
(Soz sista for the sudden moodswinging :( so sorry...)
i got home and just stoned...
i didnt bathed yet and then i was deep in thoughts for 1 hour
then i walked to my keyboard and started playing
i realized how lousy i am
then i started thinking lots of shits
just when i thought my life is steady and happy now
but actually i havent been enjoying my days
all i do was work and work..
every single day... i havent gone out to eat with my family for nearly a month
now my daily routine is wake up, eat the lunch my mum bought, go work
then come home, buy supper for my mum , surfed the net and sleep and wake up the next morning repeating the routine
and all i have been doing is shopping..
why am i shopping when i dont even get a chance to go out?...

Why is the grass Always have to be greener on the other side?
just when i thought i can be busy and time will just fly pass and i'll be happy being busy rather than rotting at home
but now i cant keep track of time..
i dont even know what day and what date it is until i check my calender ...
im living in my own world right now..
i dont like this...
i cant believe im saying this but...
im missing school life :(
i'm missing the time when i need to wake up and feel cranky, but feel happy as well becoz i get to meet my classmates and then not worry about anything coz im safe in school

i feel like i only have morning and midnight now...
i no longer have time to sit down, catch my breath and rest and move on in my own pace...
when i go out i always worry that i cant due to my schedule..
i hate it..
i feel all tied up, sealed into an empty box of darkness
i no longer have the freedom i used to have :(
i miss the time when i go on msn and talk to my friends and just go out right away
after discussing to meeting out...
i miss playing games together the whole day with my friends..

mayb i should just wait...
there are upcoming events, but.. sigh..
i'll just drink my night away
i hate whisky :(
why must my brother open whisky
i want vodka lime and raspberry ~_~
good nightz

missing;11:20 PM

about.

Sam
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14th January 1991
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What should people know bout me?
.Don't Push my buttons
.Its not easy pushing my buttons
.I'm NOT always happy when i smile
.I love sweet things
.I'm quite thick skin
.But shy at certain times
.When I don't chat with you doesn't mean I don't want to be friends with you
.Just wait for awhile and time will tell

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5N1 Yr 2008.

Kai Li.

Edwyna.

Edmund.

Naemah.

Wei Ming.

Firdaus.

Kai Jie.

Hong Boon.

Kalverty.

Jia Liing.

Lois.

Joanne.

Serene.

Janna.

Viola.

Michelle.

Amanda.

Beverly.

Alicia.

Joey.

Amanda Chan.

Deeron.

Hui Yin.

Clinton.

Nicholas.

Madeline.

Khairiyah.

Syahirah.

Shiqi.

Peiyun.

Yida.

Wan jun.

Rabiatul.

Annisaa.

Mardhiah.

Irfan.

Ridwan.

Hanisah.

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