Midnight blogging~
i got my O level results today
L1R4- 21 Points
L1R5- Moe didn't bother to count

when i saw the result sleep i was really happy, coz it was stated
C
B
C
B
B
B

I thought i got below 20 points
that Miss Chan and Mdm Noreen talked to me in a really sad way and said my points were more than 20
I didn't know why but i was really happy with my results
from 30+ L1R4 with 5 failing subjects
i passed all and got L1R4 of 21
I should be happy isnt it? i improved
I was happy, but after the rushy day was coming to and end
i had a thought, is that really wad im satisfied of? just improvements?
i went from happy fuck to fucked up
sms'd sista for a chat and she gave a few good advices that cheered me up
after work while going home, sista called and we had a bit of the chat on my way home
then i got home and went on msn and we chatted about the courses we're choosing
well just wana say Sorry if we can't go on the same course or in the same school
but no matter wad we won't lose contact :]
like i said, i Believe in it, so if you do too, its possible

i got a few tips from Lecturers that added me on msn, i know what i should do now
all i can ask for is people who loves me, pray for me :P

So today is quite a Contradiction-
mixture of happiness and sadness at the same time
joy colliding with grieves and regrets

-Request-
anyone with better scores than me, pls be happy
coz if you feel dumb, it will make me feel dumber
and i dont like to feel dumb
so stop it
or i'll get mad .